Farewells and Hellos

I hate goodbyes....

My life has been nothing but a fast roller coaster ride.. Sometimes I'm up, the next thing I know I'm down.. Way down that I can't even feel how bad it hurts to fall.

But I guess life is like this for most people.. You will never know when things would hit you. I have a goal.. I'm not the type of person who has no direction. But leaving my current work has never really been part of that plan. For the longest time I thought that I was doing just fine. Life for me may not be perfect for some. But I am happy with it. I am contented with what I have. As far as I'm concerned, I live in a world filled with pastel colors.. Pinks, yellows, purples, peaches and greens - okay.. I may be exaggerating a bit... oh, fine A LOT!!!... But hey, this is my life! I can create my own little wonderland if I want to.. So I'm sticking with my pastel-colored world for now. I'm still enjoying the thought so far. Hmmmm (girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes, snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes)...... Ooops! Sorry... Dozed off for a bit there. Haha! Anyways, as I was saying.. I was having fun with work. Pay may not be that great, but money has never really been the biggest factor for me. I love my work because I enjoy the people I work with and it's the coolest job in the world. I may not be the boss.. but for the hundreds of hopeful applicants out there.. I am their goddess of light (haha..)!! So who thinks otherwise now huh??

However, opportunities come to you in the most unexpected time. And if there's one thing I hate to disregard.. It is a great opportunity.. One huge opening that could possibly make or break someone's future. But the decision has not been an easy one for me. I have thought about it over and over until my head ached so bad.. There were things that I didn't want to leave behind. People who are very special to me.. friends and co-workers alike.. the breakfast, lunch and merienda buddies, my bosses, the manangs from coop and canteen, the super friendly guards at the basement... I will miss them all so so much! I will forever treasure those wonderful memories.. Memories both good and bad that are truly worth keeping.. I have stumbled, stood up and fell back over during my entire stay. But I would like to believe that the best thing in falling sometimes, is not the idea of getting back on your feet again... but the satisfaction of great relief after undergoing a long sense of unbearable pain.

Life is an endless journey... My destination may be important. But I would rather mull over which route I'll take to get there.. The choices I make are never certain. However, taking risks just make the trip one heck of a ride!!