Moving Out

Still Water Runs Deep.....


Have you ever felt like running away? Have you ever experienced being caught up in a very difficult situation, you can't think of anything else to do but escape? Escape from all the complexities and obscurities.. Away from everything- go some place where you can only look forward to the future and decide never to return.. And finally finding yourself back from where everything started.

Whenever i'm in trouble and can't seem to find the right solution.. i always think of running away. When i was in law school, i had a hard time coping and adjusting so i decided to quit.. I was so afraid to fail so i left. When things go wrong at work, i resign.. look for a new job where i can start all over. In relationships, when i feel things are about to become ugly - I leave.. without even having to try to work things out.

That's how things are for me.. I hate facing difficulties. They're too complicated. I want simple. No twists and turns.. just plain simple. So when i decided to move out there were so many things that went on to my head. How am i going to pay the rent? Who will cook for me? Who will do the laundry? how am i going to get to my office everyday? What am i going to do every weekends? would there be television? aircon perhaps? How am i going to survive?

I burst into tears while thinking of these things. I realized how blessed i am for having such wonderful parents. I realized how sheltered i am and how much i should be grateful for having been provided of everything i needed and even more. I have become the person i am now because of them. And if only for these things.. I say thank you, ma & pa.